Thursday, March 24, 2016

It's been an extremely long time since I have felt this compelled to rant on a blog post. However the hate and anger cannot be contained within the limits of my body. Maybe one day I will look over this blog as a silly teenage diary but for now it's the only way to divert my negativity, my anger, my rage. 

As a person, we may have been to accustomed to the comforts of life; being provided for, having a suitable or even exceeding environment to study in. Wouldn't it be peculiar that some of us become increasingly complacent about the treacheries of life, the unfortunate reality that we aren't children anymore, the unnerving fact that we would have to put in effort to support ourselves or even our parents? The hard truth hits us all. What have we been doing as people, as daughters and sons, as parents, as guardians as sisters and brothers and as friends - are we ruining our interpersonal relationships? 

One cannot afford to selfishly think about prolonging our own comforts by sacrificing the happiness and leeching off the efforts of another. That would be despicably lazy and arrogant. Yet how is it that some people act as though the world belongs to them - they create a throne out of self-obligation and indulge themselves in the toxic notion that everyone is the individual, we seek to provide comforts to ourselves and nothing more. This is why kind and selfless people have my utmost respect. You have looked around, perhaps to cite and example, you have seen your neighbour's plate and asked if he had enough, not at another's and complained why you do not have as much. The focus should never be on self but on the greater community. 

However, compassion and empathy starts from the self. Is the being "I" truly more important than the entirety of the world? Or is it just a false misconception. What is this "I" that everyone is trying to protect and satisfy? Once the mystery has been unravelled, is it not easy to see how silly and misguided we have been all the time? Can we then give others unconditional love and boundless joy?

So then my question to you girl - How have you grown to become such a monster, thriving off the frivolous beliefs in your mind and ruining yourself to this "I" that you see so all important?

Wednesday, October 9, 2013

Sunday, October 6, 2013

もう寂しい

ただ生きるは辛い
でもこの声は誰にも教えたくない
孤独や寂しいさや
なれるかな。。。

Sunday, March 24, 2013

-SIGH-

I lost my favourite earpiece today. UGH DEPRESSED DD: I liked that piece a lot and now that sense of loss that is overwhelming me.....sigh, if only I had a picture perfect memory that could allow me to save images into my head like a computer, yup, life would be better that way >.<

Thursday, November 10, 2011

Planting ^^

It is surprisingly fun to grow a plant. Its like, *poof* and a leaf appears.....IM A MAGICIAN XD But really, its so damn green >.< Which reminds me of what we can all be in the future. You never know..you might just suddenly *poof* into somewhere and be there like all your life...I AM SO EXCITED TO ANNOUNCE MY LIFELONG DREAM~~~Since Im a glutton like I always have been, I would work hard to achieve my dream of traveling the world to try all the good food <3 BUT FIRST. JAPAN. Must. Get. To. Japan. And see Alice Nine~~cuz Im a crazy fangirl >A<

Sunday, September 25, 2011

Night stalking =P


Idek what Im doing awake at this time of the night/dawn -sigh- BUT. I noticed a the sky in a different colour today...its dull at this time of the morning. Its like its going to glow up any moment soon but you have to sprinkle it with rainbow sprinkles..? Anyways, I believe that this sky dull or bright, links us to the people we trust and believe~~Alice Nine!!! <3

Sunday, August 7, 2011

FOOD OMNOMNOMNOM

I was dreaming about growing up yesterday. THE THOUGHT SCARES ME. ME that has the mentality of a five year old, and the dream was a nightmare. Strangely, I was thinking about how good grilled cheese and mushroom toast would taste, esp those mushrooms that look like they popped out from an anime.... :D I like cheese and bread XD but still don't get why my friend hates it though XD Up till now, I still dont get why people eat eggs and bacon for breakfast and meat for dinner. Thats like a shitload of proteins all jumbled up......Bio does scary things to people....

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

GYAH!

There was a cockroach in my room
It was flying
I was dying

Sunday, June 12, 2011

Namida no ondo

SID, is a really accomplished band~~~ Just realised they performed at Tokyo Dome in Dec but Gazette also had a live there so I didn't know~~ Ahh.....but they have nice songs, somewhat like Alice Nine? The soothing feeling is there. Stomach cramps as usual but it'll get better....I hope?? Listening to Namida no Ondo, I was quite surprised. I ACTUALLY UNDERSTAND WHAT THEY ARE SINGING!!!! Sort of? XD

Thursday, May 19, 2011

I realised, that I like to listen to the soft songs of the gazette and it gets stuck in my head for a freaking long time (Y) I have sth to do in scl besides listening :D Weirder still, I like the more rock songs in Alice Nine?? Thats pretty weird, considering both bands produce very different sounds?? XDD