Thursday, March 24, 2016

It's been an extremely long time since I have felt this compelled to rant on a blog post. However the hate and anger cannot be contained within the limits of my body. Maybe one day I will look over this blog as a silly teenage diary but for now it's the only way to divert my negativity, my anger, my rage. 

As a person, we may have been to accustomed to the comforts of life; being provided for, having a suitable or even exceeding environment to study in. Wouldn't it be peculiar that some of us become increasingly complacent about the treacheries of life, the unfortunate reality that we aren't children anymore, the unnerving fact that we would have to put in effort to support ourselves or even our parents? The hard truth hits us all. What have we been doing as people, as daughters and sons, as parents, as guardians as sisters and brothers and as friends - are we ruining our interpersonal relationships? 

One cannot afford to selfishly think about prolonging our own comforts by sacrificing the happiness and leeching off the efforts of another. That would be despicably lazy and arrogant. Yet how is it that some people act as though the world belongs to them - they create a throne out of self-obligation and indulge themselves in the toxic notion that everyone is the individual, we seek to provide comforts to ourselves and nothing more. This is why kind and selfless people have my utmost respect. You have looked around, perhaps to cite and example, you have seen your neighbour's plate and asked if he had enough, not at another's and complained why you do not have as much. The focus should never be on self but on the greater community. 

However, compassion and empathy starts from the self. Is the being "I" truly more important than the entirety of the world? Or is it just a false misconception. What is this "I" that everyone is trying to protect and satisfy? Once the mystery has been unravelled, is it not easy to see how silly and misguided we have been all the time? Can we then give others unconditional love and boundless joy?

So then my question to you girl - How have you grown to become such a monster, thriving off the frivolous beliefs in your mind and ruining yourself to this "I" that you see so all important?

Wednesday, October 9, 2013

Sunday, October 6, 2013

もう寂しい

ただ生きるは辛い
でもこの声は誰にも教えたくない
孤独や寂しいさや
なれるかな。。。

Sunday, March 24, 2013

-SIGH-

I lost my favourite earpiece today. UGH DEPRESSED DD: I liked that piece a lot and now that sense of loss that is overwhelming me.....sigh, if only I had a picture perfect memory that could allow me to save images into my head like a computer, yup, life would be better that way >.<

Thursday, November 10, 2011

Planting ^^

It is surprisingly fun to grow a plant. Its like, *poof* and a leaf appears.....IM A MAGICIAN XD But really, its so damn green >.< Which reminds me of what we can all be in the future. You never know..you might just suddenly *poof* into somewhere and be there like all your life...I AM SO EXCITED TO ANNOUNCE MY LIFELONG DREAM~~~Since Im a glutton like I always have been, I would work hard to achieve my dream of traveling the world to try all the good food <3 BUT FIRST. JAPAN. Must. Get. To. Japan. And see Alice Nine~~cuz Im a crazy fangirl >A<

Sunday, September 25, 2011

Night stalking =P


Idek what Im doing awake at this time of the night/dawn -sigh- BUT. I noticed a the sky in a different colour today...its dull at this time of the morning. Its like its going to glow up any moment soon but you have to sprinkle it with rainbow sprinkles..? Anyways, I believe that this sky dull or bright, links us to the people we trust and believe~~Alice Nine!!! <3

Sunday, August 7, 2011

FOOD OMNOMNOMNOM

I was dreaming about growing up yesterday. THE THOUGHT SCARES ME. ME that has the mentality of a five year old, and the dream was a nightmare. Strangely, I was thinking about how good grilled cheese and mushroom toast would taste, esp those mushrooms that look like they popped out from an anime.... :D I like cheese and bread XD but still don't get why my friend hates it though XD Up till now, I still dont get why people eat eggs and bacon for breakfast and meat for dinner. Thats like a shitload of proteins all jumbled up......Bio does scary things to people....

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

GYAH!

There was a cockroach in my room
It was flying
I was dying

Sunday, June 12, 2011

Namida no ondo

SID, is a really accomplished band~~~ Just realised they performed at Tokyo Dome in Dec but Gazette also had a live there so I didn't know~~ Ahh.....but they have nice songs, somewhat like Alice Nine? The soothing feeling is there. Stomach cramps as usual but it'll get better....I hope?? Listening to Namida no Ondo, I was quite surprised. I ACTUALLY UNDERSTAND WHAT THEY ARE SINGING!!!! Sort of? XD

Thursday, May 19, 2011

I realised, that I like to listen to the soft songs of the gazette and it gets stuck in my head for a freaking long time (Y) I have sth to do in scl besides listening :D Weirder still, I like the more rock songs in Alice Nine?? Thats pretty weird, considering both bands produce very different sounds?? XDD

Monday, May 9, 2011

BIO OVERLOAD.

Too much Bio!! I feel like such a good girl :) So I'll just slack now....

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Mah stomach seems to be dying on me lately. Thanks for your support stomach. It really helps :)

Saturday, January 15, 2011

I shall force my mom to go to the Hokkaido thingy tmr. And my fren will ONE DAY cos as Ciel, cuz we are so lame like that and just for once, I might wanna cosplay as an anime chara. (Y) Oh ya, I realised that if i do my hw and stuff properly, I actually hv com time at night. PLUS, with sucky shows, I don't hv to sacrifice my com time watching good drama XDD Oh ya, Love my new table, its all like big and stuff, and there's like a place to put my Cds so its all good :)) Speaking of Cds, I got to get Alice Nine's new Album? I think its an album? If its nice larh. They put the new song in the album, and it sounds ok...so I think it sould be worth it. Although Gazette singles are very much worth it too....

Thursday, September 16, 2010

STOMACH CRAMPS

just finished my dinner
stomach isnt feeling any better
i am not getting any fatter
according to my health letter

didnt go to school today
it is now 5 months after may
holy shit i say
when i whack someone with a tray

homework sucks
i am running out of lucks
i want to drive a truck
and my best friend could be a duck

now i am on my last paragraph
and my luck so far is tough
my dnt work still needs a buff
and i want to buy a lot of stuff

Friday, July 30, 2010

i like music. i like looking at hiroto. i like reading updates frm facebook abt alice nine. but i realised tat all music can sound nice. its the problem of the essence of the music. i dun like mainstream music coz of tat. realised there are some exceptions like cascade or lady gaga. but i will always like the everlasting melody of visual kei more than american pop. no one will change that descision i just made. i dont care. i will always love j-rock, its etched in my memory, the lyrics, sound, soul and piercing eyes of their faces. this is visual kei, the essence of rhythm.

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

thunder in de l8 nite ^3^

wow nvr tot i coud catch the sound of thunder at 3.57 a.m. but its kinda cool knowing tat yr de ONLY one hu noes wats going on while the others r sleeping. watching anime n manga again, im such a computer addict XD btw my aunt n fam. isnt gonna b here for 5 days. dis is like my 3rd day so far n well, tare still 2 more days left rite? sad......... but! i might bring my com to genting since cass say got free wi-fis. but its like already 2-3 weeks so idk lar. hope itll still hv. scared my fren gonna stalk me tare. relli, humans ARE so unpredictable at times

signing off wif sadness,
Misery

Friday, June 11, 2010

one of my terrible days

i was taken out at ard 2 today. experienced de sunlight again. it hurt mah eyes. FINALLY i went home at ard 6.30? BUT in de car, i spilt root beer. i went out to wipe it off coz my aunt is kinda pissy bout these things. i went home wif y legs bending unnaturally when i was walking ugh.......

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

my butt hurts........

recently, like a normal hikkikomori, although i cant lock myself in a room D: coz de internet doesnt work tare for some reason O: i am sitting down in a tight spot using the computer n avoiding contact wif de world XD but i realised tat if u sit tare for too long, ur butt will hurt a lot and it will become freaking NUMB!!!! also, its like damn warm n kinda.... uncomfortable XD aso at nite everyone aso will see what im watching, ugh... i like to watch my anime in PEACE dammit! ok. ranting time up, now its ANIME time XD

Sunday, June 6, 2010

im a lifeless person.......

let me state 1st. im posting this bcoz cookie monster will kill me if i dun do it. so pls hv compassion on me:D so....... cass, cookie monster doesnt deserve this T.T anyways (insert name here) said tat ryan from the young veins which came frm P!ATD had a veri nice original(?) hair called de ryhawk but he looks cute so hus gonna complain XD but his face HAS TO BE illegal. i mean like hes too cute! like (insert name here) said tat adam lambert was an alien hu invaded earth wif his out of world singing so i was wonderin....... is ryan frm planet cute or sth? sounds suspicious rite? so to end dis off..... ryan is frm planet cute n adam is frm planet rock! yea! ok im too hyper now, jus got back frm de hospital, dun wanna get another nosebleed XD

de hot guy frm jigoku shoujoXD

wrong much? XD